Today Was Really Hard

Today was really hard 
I listened, spoke, and wrote
There wasn’t any one thing that made it hard
It was just a lot of stuff that stacked up

I wondered if my teammates felt the same 
Like me, pushing through the difficulty
Doing their absolute best 
And wondering if they were falling short 

Sometimes I wonder if I’m good enough for my job 
If I deserve the trust that people place in me 
I wake up every day with deep humility
Knowing the answers I have are probably not good enough

If we don’t do the right thing 
If we become lazy and don’t persist with difficult adjustments 
Towards the thing that actually matters to the customer 
We’re dead 

Our little software startup shifts so fast
And so do our projects 
You almost finish one thing and pivot to a new thing
You learn to say goodbye to the thing you thought was the thing

So yeah this startup stuff is really hard 
Please accept a big hug from me
You are smart enough and you are brave for being here
We are not dead 

Because we are curious 
And we make the difficult adjustments 
We deconstruct 
And re-construct our ideas

And this process creates an incredible artifact
For me, by far the most interesting thing I’ve ever done 
To manifest something that never existed before
To witness is an incredible gift